"I Choose To Stand"

I CHOOSE TO STAND

As the days go by,

I wonder when to say bye.

I wonder in the night.

With all my might,

How long a road, 

And a time so short.

I must make a stand.

And I must fight.

Be it a thousand years,

Or a thousand nights.

Only if I have a stronger heart,

And only if I have a renewed mind.

Only if all my only ifs are true.

Life may be full of precariousness,

But I have the inimitable truth.

The truth that strikes fear out of my life.

People can say many things,

And can give a thousand why's.

Justifying their actions.

At the end of the day, 

Our reasoning can not be used to justify our actions,

Only the truth matters most.

Let the truth take its rightful place,

And let it be a prerequisite in my heart.

So that I will walk in the light,

And let the light show me the way.

"Fighting Back"

As Time Passes By,
In a blink of an eye.

From day to day,
Months to months,
And Years to years.

I lived another day,
To fight for tommorow.

I heard the battle cry,
And I reciprocate.

I will fight,
In the minutes of the day,
and in the hours of the night.

There is no such thing as forever,
And nothing us for sure,
I must fight and take what is mine.


I need the strength to go on,
And the resilience in my heart,
to fight back.

I will not lay down here,
While my enemies are at the door.

I must hang on,
Holding on to the thread of hope,
With all my strength and with all my might.
Even if it takes my last breath.

I walk by the River side.

Each step I took,
Sauntering along the river bank, with a petty pace.
I could hear whisper of the wind,
Telling the world Goodbye.

The sound of waters,
Gushing, and running the never ending race.

The river never sleeps,
And so is the tenacity within me to go on.

The flame inside my heart,
Is burning with a flaming light.

The race of time,
Is at the finishing line.

A stone throw's away,
From everlasting life.

One more mountain,
And over the next hill.

I'm not worthy, and will never be.
For the truth You have given me.

Thank You,
From the bottom of my grateful heart.

When Reality Strikes.

She was there, standing beside the window pane.

Her eyes was sparkling with a glimmer of hope.

She was smiling, and her smile melts my heart.

As Her eyes met mine, and my heart skips a beat.

I never felt so close to anyone before in my life.

I felt the moment where dreams are made of.

And then it struck me, as the thunder strikes.

Beyond her beauty, lies an impending truth.

I must fight this emotions. 

I have the truth, and the truth is within me.

What is inside the heart, is what really matters most.

I saw the truth, and it has set me free.

I shall not be in want, for the things of the world.

My heart must be right, and let the truth reign in my heart.

The lust of my flesh, I must fight.

And to fight, I need to be strong.

I can hear the sound of the mighty wind.

Whispering in my ears.

I'm longing for home.

A place where the Roses never fades.

"The Tears of the Sky'

A girl came running through,
across the torrents of blinding rain.

She was at full speed,
As she was dashing across the slippery roads.

Flashes of light,
Followed by the thunder came across the sky.
She was drench, and was indeed soaking wet.
She was in adrenaline, feeling not the shivers of the wind.

And at the brink of the road,
I saw her falling down.

She called out as she falls in the pit of the drain.
Wanting, Shouting, at the top of her lungs.

I dash forward, in the urge of my instinct.
At the heat of the moment, I was a Man.

I gave her my hands trying to pick her up,
Seeing tears in her eyes.

At that very moment,
There was an utmost silence.

Her eyes met mine,
Her tears, came flushing down.

Our silence, kept us apart.
A lonely girl, wanting to scream.

I've help her, and that is it.
Its time to say Bye, even without a Hi.

"Here it comes again."

It was a sunday morning.
The sun was shining brightly,

The translucent blue light of the day,
And there was birds flying in the sky.

The start of the day, seems bright and sunny.
The stars of the night, are no where in sight.

I sat there by the window pane.
Wondering and astonish at natures wonder.

And suddenly, the serenity of my heart was disturb.
By the powerful wind that passes by.

The cool breeze sends shiver down my spine.
The senses inside me, was somehow awaken.

I could see a butterfly flapping in the air, 
Seeking shelter in its flight.
Even the birds are scrambling away.

The morning sun, has lost its glory.
And here comes the impending storm,
Which brings darkness to the day.

The silence of the day was broken.
The melodious tune sung by the birds,
Faded away as the thunder strikes.

Each breeze of cool air,
Went past my face.

The spluttering of the rain against the window pane ,
Creates a slient cry within me.

A tearless cry, fills my heart.
I sigh for relieve.

Overjoyed, overwhelmed,
By the sound of water gushing against the roof .

I was at shelter,
I have a home.
A roof above my head.

I am grateful,
For all the things I have in my life.
I was never worthy, and I never will be.

"The Mirror"

The heart inside my heart,
Is what I cannot see.

What lies within us,
One can never tell.

The mirror of truth see's all things,
The reflection of the heart is tough to take.

You can know a persons heart,
Simply by what comes out of his mouth.

The tenacity within me to go on,
Is burning with a flaming light .

The quest to search myself has begun.
The quest where there is no turning back.

I need to see the truth,
To see myself, from another side.

To find the key to my own heart,
To open the door.

And when I see the light,
Let darkness within me dissipate.

"Mistakes"

In life, we make mistakes.

But in one life, how many mistakes can we afford to make?

Mistakes are made, unconciously, unknowingly.

Audacious mistake can cause you your life, your soul.

I go from day to day, hoping, that I learn from my mistakes I made.

For if so I never learn, it will not be a possiblity, but an assurance that I will fall into the never ending pit.

I need a heart of steel, a heart that is fixed.

To overcome , whatever is to come.

To be bold, To be strong, and to hold on.

I got the ticket to higher places , but can i make the whole trip?

I have the truth, but does the truth abide in me?

Hold fast, be humble, and never let go, stop being a fool.

As the stormy sea rises, and falls.

How long can I hold on? 

Buck up, for time is not on my side.

Curtains are coming to a close.

Rise and fight.

And do what is right.

I said to myself.

Stop making silly mistakes,

Stop being a fool.

BENJAMIN pull up your socks.

For the final stretch, for the last time.

I need to hold on to the truth I have within me.

Its the last thread of hope, that will bring me through the stormy seas.

I longing to go back, back to where I'm suppose to be. 

A place far from here, a place where the roses never fade.

"Let the Rain Fall"

The clock struck twelve.
The skies were gloomy, the storm is rising.

I look up at the heavens,
Feeling daze at the sight.

A thunderous sound,
grumbling in the air.

The cricket sings,
Chirping in the long dark night.

As the moon light  kiss my face.
I felt contented.

As the thunder strikes.
My heart skips a bit.

The tears of the sky,
Came flushing down.

The heart inside my heart,
is but bubbling with joy.

And as the rain stops,
Darkness turns to light.

The sun rises again,
and shadows of the day is scattered for another day.

"What I need"

I need a strong heart, a strong will.
I need to be bold, to be strong.

I can never stand by my own feet.
I slip and stumble, at the two roads ahead of me.

Would I go the right ? or on the Left ?
I need a fixed heart.

Curtains are coming to a close.
And at times, I wonder, What am I doing?

But I will not give up.
I will rise up again, and again.

I will fight, and fight.
Until the day, I say YES.

YES not on my account.
But YES, I remember the One that has help me through.

"Beneath the stars"

From the day I saw you.
Your glimmering eyes,
Your killer smile.
You took my heart.

I stood by ever waiting.
Wanting to be found.
In the depths of my heart,
Longing for what is not to be mine.

Beneath the shadows of the night,
Lies a secret,
I dream of you, everyday.

Waking up by the day,
Hoping, deep in my heart.
That our ways, cross paths.

Walking under the shadows of the stars,
Taking one step at a time.
Hoping one day,
I will find the key to your heart.

"Her Beauty"

At the corner of my eye, I saw her.
She stood there, among the crowd.
And She caught my eye.

Sparkling eyes I could see.
But what is hidden in the heart, I cannot see.
Gentleness of the soul is what she has.

But its more than meets the eyes that count.
Her inner heart that  counts.
Her inner beauty is what I need  to see.

I can never know her.
Unless I find the key to her heart.
Maybe in days to come, but not now.

I know the time to say Hi,
And at the same time,
I know how to say bye.

People say love is blind.
I say luscious love is blind.
It is meaningless.

True love is the bonding of the heart, the soul.
Luscious love is of the mind.

Lets start by being friends.
Through tears, I will find the key.
Through sorrow, I will open the door.

Let our love be as pure as the tears of a child.
Love not driven by lust, or the deisires of the flesh.
Let our hearts be one, as the stars shining brightly in the night.

"Time and Time again"

Many times I slip and stumble,
And how I wish there was never a fall.

Staring at the starless night, wishing there was never  a was.
Time wasting, time consuming.

My drive for perfection, makes me imperfect.
I'm just a nobody, trap in the desires of the flesh.

I'm longing for inner joy.
Bubbling in my heart.

A Joy that comes from life.
Life that comes from a higher places.

When I think  I stood, I came tumbling down.
Confidence in myself is what I need not.

Be bold, be strong.
And take not the burdens of the world.

I brush my shoulder, wanting nothing.
Having calmness of the soul, is what I desire.

Chasing not the vain glories of man.
But walking in the path of righteousness.

I tried, I failed.
But I must be strong.

Holding on to what I have, is my greatest treasure.

"People never Learned"

I've said many times,
Relationships are like a glass, once broken, forever broken.
Even if you pick them up , cutting yourself in the process,
And it is hard to placed every single pieces back to where it once was.
And even if you do, its never the same.
There will always be a crack marks in the glass.
It can never be as beautiful and shiny like before.

I've learned to moved on.
I've moved on.
There's no will in me to go on with you.
And there shall be no way I can go back the place where we once have.

So please,
Realise, wake up and grow up.
I'm not bothered about people saying anything against me.
I'm who I am, and I'm not bothered by the burdens of the world.

You can gain sympathy,
You can win them by your side,
I'm not bothered, for the things you do, you will reap.

In certain measure, I'm wrong.
I acknowledge my wrong, and I'm sorry.
For the things I've done, there is no turning back.
And so the same I say to you.

I forgive you, and at the same time I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that you lost so much and I too little.
I forgive you, for you are only human like me.
I forgive you, for you do not understand.

Lets be friends.
Friends that doesn't get in your way.
Friends that would respect your decision.
Friends that would accept the fact.

I will shake your hand and forget the rest.
But please,
I can forget the past, but do not forget, the past defines the future.

"2010"

 

In the year of 2010,

Secrets were revealed, Bonds were broken.

Left my fear, By the side of the road.

Hearing the truth, That sets me free.

I have no sympathy, Nor emotions.

Right is right, And wrong is wrong.

 

This is WAR. 

He speaks of unity, but his words spells division.

His actions deceive his words, and his words showeth his heart.

Some stand on his left, Some stand on his right.

They are blind fools.

Drunken in the blood of their own flesh.

They think they are right, but they are wrong.

Make your stand.

And look not to men.

Seek the truth.

And always remember,

You could be wrong.

If you don't understand, its not meant for you.xp.

"Its Time"

Knowing the truth,

And not practising it.

I'm a fool.

Just like the wind that passes by,
And the vapour in the wind.
Who am I?

I'm a nobody.

Saying sorry for the same mistake.
Time and time again.

I'm not upright.

Nothing is unbreakable.
Nothing is unbearable.

The fire in me,
How long can you hold?

It's time,
It's coming

There are two roads ahead of me.

And where shall I stand?

Be Strong, Be bold.
And never let it go.

"The way to a MAN's heart is through his stomach."

I only eat chinese food, no indian or malay food.
I would say no to "Nasi Lemak",
I would say no to " Roti Canai"

I would go for the taste rather than appearance.
What's the point of having an attractive first sight, and rotten on the inside?
I do not like my food too hot, once tasted, I will get burn.
I do not like my food too cold, for my hunger will dissipate.

I do not like food that has a lots of fat.
I also do not like food that is too bony.
I like a medium size average food type.
Not too fat or thin.

I do not take second hand food,
I do not like sharing saliva with another guy.
I like my food clean,pure and untouch.

I do not like fanciful and expensive food.
I prefer simple food, that is affordable.
Because I'm only a student.