My LIfE

2011-11-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

As I saunter along this narrow road,
My eyes were looking into the deep blue sky.

I gaze upon the heavens,
Dark-rain clouds began to form.

I was in awe at the sight,
As the thunderclouds struck.

The tears of the sky,
Came flushing down.

I scramble and scatter,
On these fallen leaves.

I stood there,
Shuddering in the cold.

Suddenly as the thunder strikes,
My ears began to hear,

My eyes began to see,
The flashes of light across the dark sky.

Running towards the light,
At the end of the road.

How far can I go?
How much can I do?

The answer is here,
There is absolutely nothing I can do.

Without the Light,
There is no hope.

If ever I cross the finishing line,
It will always be this Light.

And I listen to the whispers of my heart.
With so much joy bubbling within my soul.

" A Day To Remember"

2011-09-13T09:13:00.002+08:00

As I woke up with the morning sun,
I can hear birds singing in the air.

My senses awaken,
As the light shines through the darkness.

As I took each breath,
I felt the Hope filling my heart.

My heart must be strong,
As the battle must go on.

As the light shines through the darkness,
I saw the joy, and I felt the peace.

A day for Victory,
A day of Remembrance.

As I sat beside the window pane,
There was a whisper in my heart.

A day to remember,
On thirteen September.

" A day without a Night "

2011-09-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

I look out the window pane,
staring towards the glaring sun.
I can see the light shining through the clouds.

The dawn of a new day,
An array of hope.
Life is full of perils,

If only one can see.

The hardest nights, the raging storm.

I wonder how am I standing here,
After all I've been through.

For every step I take,

And for every decision I make.
It takes me closer,
Towards the end of time.

I tried to be strong,
I tried to be bold.

And I have failed a thousand times.

I can spend a lifetime running,

But how long can you run?
Face your battles today,
And fight for tomorrow.

For every rise of the sun.

For every choice I make.
Hold on,
With the last thread of hope.

Once more, somehow.
I want to see that sight,
A day without a night.

Burn the bridges

2011-05-26T22:24:00.000+08:00

I've been running against the wind,

And I've been through life's raging sea.

I once was young,

And I am older now.

I close my eyes,

And hear the whispers of my heart.

I see tears rolling down my heart,

And into my soul.

I saunter along this pavement,

With a petty pace.

I can see the road ahead,

As clear as daylight.

I have been showed the way, the light,

Time and time again,

I still fall by the wayside,

How ungrateful have I been?

I will not dwell in self-pity,

Nor the condemnation of my heart,

I pick up myself up from falling,

And run with the wind.

There is a place that is nearing,

Over the next hill and through the mountains,

There is no turning back,

I burn my bridges of my past.

Hold on, somehow.

With all my strength,

And with all my heart.

Don't let go.

Its not how you start the race,

Its how you end the race.

"The Anchor Holds"

2011-04-30T12:34:00.000+08:00

We are like a ship sailing out,

On a trip so rough and long.

Many started the race,

How many will finish the race?

Time is running out.

Across the raging seas, and the bitter storms.

I have fallen on my knees,

And still the anchor holds.

Even in the darkness of the night,

there was always a candle,

showing the way, showing the light.

In a timeless time,

I saw the truth, and I found the light.

And I must fight iniquities, without hesitation.

In times of darkness,

I look into the flickering light of an upheld candle,

And there I found my comfort, my shelter and my warmth.

You didn't thought me to fight,

So that I can lose,

You thought me to fight,

Because I can win.

I choose to stand,and I know that I'm a nobody,

Please keep me safe towards the end of time.

"I Choose To Stand"

2010-12-14T00:27:00.001+08:00

I CHOOSE TO STAND

As the days go by,

I wonder when to say bye.

I wonder in the night.

With all my might,

How long a road,

And a time so short.

I must make a stand.

And I must fight.

Be it a thousand years,

Or a thousand nights.

Only if I have a stronger heart,

And only if I have a renewed mind.

Only if all my only ifs are true.

Life may be full of precariousness,

But I have the inimitable truth.

The truth that strikes fear out of my life.

People can say many things,

And can give a thousand why's.

Justifying their actions.

At the end of the day,

Our reasoning can not be used to justify our actions,

Only the truth matters most.

Let the truth take its rightful place,

And let it be a prerequisite in my heart.

So that I will walk in the light,

And let the light show me the way.

"Fighting Back"

2010-10-20T19:59:00.000+08:00

As Time Passes By,
In a blink of an eye.

From day to day,
Months to months,
And Years to years.

I lived another day,
To fight for tommorow.

I heard the battle cry,
And I reciprocate.

I will fight,
In the minutes of the day,
and in the hours of the night.

There is no such thing as forever,
And nothing us for sure,
I must fight and take what is mine.

I need the strength to go on,
And the resilience in my heart,
to fight back.

I will not lay down here,
While my enemies are at the door.

I must hang on,
Holding on to the thread of hope,
With all my strength and with all my might.
Even if it takes my last breath.

I walk by the River side.

2010-08-05T13:54:00.003+08:00

Each step I took,
Sauntering along the river bank, with a petty pace.
I could hear whisper of the wind,
Telling the world Goodbye.

The sound of waters,
Gushing, and running the never ending race.

The river never sleeps,
And so is the tenacity within me to go on.

The flame inside my heart,
Is burning with a flaming light.

The race of time,
Is at the finishing line.

A stone throw's away,
From everlasting life.

One more mountain,
And over the next hill.

I'm not worthy, and will never be.
For the truth You have given me.

Thank You,
From the bottom of my grateful heart.

When Reality Strikes.

2010-07-16T08:54:00.008+08:00

She was there, standing beside the window pane.

Her eyes was sparkling with a glimmer of hope.

She was smiling, and her smile melts my heart.

As Her eyes met mine, and my heart skips a beat.

I never felt so close to anyone before in my life.

I felt the moment where dreams are made of.

And then it struck me, as the thunder strikes.

Beyond her beauty, lies an impending truth.

I must fight this emotions.

I have the truth, and the truth is within me.

What is inside the heart, is what really matters most.

I saw the truth, and it has set me free.

I shall not be in want, for the things of the world.

My heart must be right, and let the truth reign in my heart.

The lust of my flesh, I must fight.

And to fight, I need to be strong.

I can hear the sound of the mighty wind.

Whispering in my ears.

I'm longing for home.

A place where the Roses never fades.

"The Tears of the Sky'

2010-06-28T14:36:00.000+08:00

A girl came running through,
across the torrents of blinding rain.

She was at full speed,
As she was dashing across the slippery roads.

Flashes of light,
Followed by the thunder came across the sky.
She was drench, and was indeed soaking wet.
She was in adrenaline, feeling not the shivers of the wind.

And at the brink of the road,
I saw her falling down.

She called out as she falls in the pit of the drain.
Wanting, Shouting, at the top of her lungs.

I dash forward, in the urge of my instinct.
At the heat of the moment, I was a Man.

I gave her my hands trying to pick her up,
Seeing tears in her eyes.

At that very moment,
There was an utmost silence.

Her eyes met mine,
Her tears, came flushing down.

Our silence, kept us apart.
A lonely girl, wanting to scream.

I've help her, and that is it.
Its time to say Bye, even without a Hi.

"Here it comes again."

2010-06-28T01:06:00.001+08:00

It was a sunday morning.
The sun was shining brightly,

The translucent blue light of the day,
And there was birds flying in the sky.

The start of the day, seems bright and sunny.
The stars of the night, are no where in sight.

I sat there by the window pane.
Wondering and astonish at natures wonder.

And suddenly, the serenity of my heart was disturb.
By the powerful wind that passes by.

The cool breeze sends shiver down my spine.
The senses inside me, was somehow awaken.

I could see a butterfly flapping in the air,
Seeking shelter in its flight.
Even the birds are scrambling away.

The morning sun, has lost its glory.
And here comes the impending storm,
Which brings darkness to the day.

The silence of the day was broken.
The melodious tune sung by the birds,
Faded away as the thunder strikes.

Each breeze of cool air,
Went past my face.

The spluttering of the rain against the window pane ,
Creates a slient cry within me.

A tearless cry, fills my heart.
I sigh for relieve.

Overjoyed, overwhelmed,
By the sound of water gushing against the roof .

I was at shelter,
I have a home.
A roof above my head.

I am grateful,
For all the things I have in my life.
I was never worthy, and I never will be.

"The Mirror"

2010-06-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

The heart inside my heart,
Is what I cannot see.

What lies within us,
One can never tell.

The mirror of truth see's all things,
The reflection of the heart is tough to take.

You can know a persons heart,
Simply by what comes out of his mouth.

The tenacity within me to go on,
Is burning with a flaming light .

The quest to search myself has begun.
The quest where there is no turning back.

I need to see the truth,
To see myself, from another side.

To find the key to my own heart,
To open the door.

And when I see the light,
Let darkness within me dissipate.

"Mistakes"

2010-06-09T21:38:00.003+08:00

In life, we make mistakes.

But in one life, how many mistakes can we afford to make?

Mistakes are made, unconciously, unknowingly.

Audacious mistake can cause you your life, your soul.

I go from day to day, hoping, that I learn from my mistakes I made.

For if so I never learn, it will not be a possiblity, but an assurance that I will fall into the never ending pit.

I need a heart of steel, a heart that is fixed.

To overcome , whatever is to come.

To be bold, To be strong, and to hold on.

I got the ticket to higher places , but can i make the whole trip?

I have the truth, but does the truth abide in me?

Hold fast, be humble, and never let go, stop being a fool.

As the stormy sea rises, and falls.

How long can I hold on?

Buck up, for time is not on my side.

Curtains are coming to a close.

Rise and fight.

And do what is right.

I said to myself.

Stop making silly mistakes,

Stop being a fool.

BENJAMIN pull up your socks.

For the final stretch, for the last time.

I need to hold on to the truth I have within me.

Its the last thread of hope, that will bring me through the stormy seas.

I longing to go back, back to where I'm suppose to be.

A place far from here, a place where the roses never fade.

"Let the Rain Fall"

2010-05-17T08:35:00.000+08:00

The clock struck twelve.
The skies were gloomy, the storm is rising.

I look up at the heavens,
Feeling daze at the sight.

A thunderous sound,
grumbling in the air.

The cricket sings,
Chirping in the long dark night.

As the moon light kiss my face.
I felt contented.

As the thunder strikes.
My heart skips a bit.

The tears of the sky,
Came flushing down.

The heart inside my heart,
is but bubbling with joy.

And as the rain stops,
Darkness turns to light.

The sun rises again,
and shadows of the day is scattered for another day.

"What I need"

2010-05-06T02:18:00.000+08:00

I need a strong heart, a strong will.
I need to be bold, to be strong.

I can never stand by my own feet.
I slip and stumble, at the two roads ahead of me.

Would I go the right ? or on the Left ?
I need a fixed heart.

Curtains are coming to a close.
And at times, I wonder, What am I doing?

But I will not give up.
I will rise up again, and again.

I will fight, and fight.
Until the day, I say YES.

YES not on my account.
But YES, I remember the One that has help me through.

"Beneath the stars"

2010-03-31T21:57:00.000+08:00

From the day I saw you.
Your glimmering eyes,
Your killer smile.
You took my heart.

I stood by ever waiting.
Wanting to be found.
In the depths of my heart,
Longing for what is not to be mine.

Beneath the shadows of the night,
Lies a secret,
I dream of you, everyday.

Waking up by the day,
Hoping, deep in my heart.
That our ways, cross paths.

Walking under the shadows of the stars,
Taking one step at a time.
Hoping one day,
I will find the key to your heart.

"Her Beauty"

2010-03-18T08:52:00.000+08:00

At the corner of my eye, I saw her.
She stood there, among the crowd.
And She caught my eye.

Sparkling eyes I could see.
But what is hidden in the heart, I cannot see.
Gentleness of the soul is what she has.

But its more than meets the eyes that count.
Her inner heart that counts.
Her inner beauty is what I need to see.

I can never know her.
Unless I find the key to her heart.
Maybe in days to come, but not now.

I know the time to say Hi,
And at the same time,
I know how to say bye.

People say love is blind.
I say luscious love is blind.
It is meaningless.

True love is the bonding of the heart, the soul.
Luscious love is of the mind.

Lets start by being friends.
Through tears, I will find the key.
Through sorrow, I will open the door.

Let our love be as pure as the tears of a child.
Love not driven by lust, or the deisires of the flesh.
Let our hearts be one, as the stars shining brightly in the night.

"Time and Time again"

2010-03-17T22:47:00.000+08:00

Many times I slip and stumble,
And how I wish there was never a fall.

Staring at the starless night, wishing there was never a was.
Time wasting, time consuming.

My drive for perfection, makes me imperfect.
I'm just a nobody, trap in the desires of the flesh.

I'm longing for inner joy.
Bubbling in my heart.

A Joy that comes from life.
Life that comes from a higher places.

When I think I stood, I came tumbling down.
Confidence in myself is what I need not.

Be bold, be strong.
And take not the burdens of the world.

I brush my shoulder, wanting nothing.
Having calmness of the soul, is what I desire.

Chasing not the vain glories of man.
But walking in the path of righteousness.

I tried, I failed.
But I must be strong.

Holding on to what I have, is my greatest treasure.

"People never Learned"

2010-03-05T12:59:00.000+08:00

I've said many times,
Relationships are like a glass, once broken, forever broken.
Even if you pick them up , cutting yourself in the process,
And it is hard to placed every single pieces back to where it once was.
And even if you do, its never the same.
There will always be a crack marks in the glass.
It can never be as beautiful and shiny like before.

I've learned to moved on.
I've moved on.
There's no will in me to go on with you.
And there shall be no way I can go back the place where we once have.

So please,
Realise, wake up and grow up.
I'm not bothered about people saying anything against me.
I'm who I am, and I'm not bothered by the burdens of the world.

You can gain sympathy,
You can win them by your side,
I'm not bothered, for the things you do, you will reap.

In certain measure, I'm wrong.
I acknowledge my wrong, and I'm sorry.
For the things I've done, there is no turning back.
And so the same I say to you.

I forgive you, and at the same time I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that you lost so much and I too little.
I forgive you, for you are only human like me.
I forgive you, for you do not understand.

Lets be friends.
Friends that doesn't get in your way.
Friends that would respect your decision.
Friends that would accept the fact.

I will shake your hand and forget the rest.
But please,
I can forget the past, but do not forget, the past defines the future.

"2010"

2010-02-13T02:43:00.000+08:00

In the year of 2010,

Secrets were revealed, Bonds were broken.

Left my fear, By the side of the road.

Hearing the truth, That sets me free.

I have no sympathy, Nor emotions.

Right is right, And wrong is wrong.

This is WAR.

He speaks of unity, but his words spells division.

His actions deceive his words, and his words showeth his heart.

Some stand on his left, Some stand on his right.

They are blind fools.

Drunken in the blood of their own flesh.

They think they are right, but they are wrong.

Make your stand.

And look not to men.

Seek the truth.

And always remember,

You could be wrong.

If you don't understand, its not meant for you.xp.

"Its Time"

2010-02-05T09:18:00.000+08:00

Knowing the truth,

And not practising it.

I'm a fool.

Just like the wind that passes by,
And the vapour in the wind.
Who am I?

I'm a nobody.

Saying sorry for the same mistake.
Time and time again.

I'm not upright.

Nothing is unbreakable.
Nothing is unbearable.

The fire in me,
How long can you hold?

It's time,
It's coming

There are two roads ahead of me.

And where shall I stand?

Be Strong, Be bold.
And never let it go.

"The way to a MAN's heart is through his stomach."

2010-01-13T23:39:00.000+08:00

I only eat chinese food, no indian or malay food.
I would say no to "Nasi Lemak",
I would say no to " Roti Canai"

I would go for the taste rather than appearance.
What's the point of having an attractive first sight, and rotten on the inside?
I do not like my food too hot, once tasted, I will get burn.
I do not like my food too cold, for my hunger will dissipate.

I do not like food that has a lots of fat.
I also do not like food that is too bony.
I like a medium size average food type.
Not too fat or thin.

I do not take second hand food,
I do not like sharing saliva with another guy.
I like my food clean,pure and untouch.

I do not like fanciful and expensive food.
I prefer simple food, that is affordable.
Because I'm only a student.

" In a blink of an eye "

2009-12-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

Time passes by, in an blink of an eye.
Many ups and downs.
Many lessons were learned.
Many lessons were thought.
Learned from yesterday, and lived for tommorow.

I learned many things. From A-Z. In the year 09.I learned that pride, can make you do silly things.
I learned that pride, can make you miserable.
I learned that pride, can make you succumb unneccesary pressure.
And I know pride, can be your greatest fall.
"Be observant in life, and ye shall learned many things" a wise man once told me.

The past is like a map , it shows you the right path.
Never do what they do. "BE honest, lie NOT."
Stand up, for what is right.
Be strong BENJAMIN, BE STRONG.
I must change,
"for the life I lived, is more important than the words I say"

My heart is bubbling with joy, My heart is soaked in gladness.
To know the truth, and it will set you free.
To live a meaningful life, when other's are still searching for the meaning of life.
I am HAPPY, from the inner soul that I have.
Year 2009, Great year.

2010,
Whatever comes, be bold.
Whatever happens, be strong.

"Curtains Are Coming To a Close"

2009-12-24T01:57:00.001+08:00

December, A time to remember.
I remember hearing an english speaking contest in november.
The title of this contest was " The greatest gift of life"
One spoke of time being the greatest gift of life, another spoke of Friendship being the greatest gift of life.

Well, to me, neither one of them are the greatest gift of life.
If u could lived forever, you would wanna die twice.
If u could have a million friends, u would have a million problems.

I however have found the greatest gift of life.
It is stored in my heart, and it cannot be shaken.
If i would tell u what it is, u can never understand.

Christmas Present for my friends. One of them might be for you if only you could see your own heart.

"Just because everyone's doing it, doesnt mean its right."

"Sometimes, by saying nothing, it says everything."

"Dont cry because its over, but smile because it happened."

"Being strong sometimes it means being able to let go."

"Sorry doest prove anything unless you mean it"

"However long the night, the dawn will break"

"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong."

"The life you live is more important than the words you speak"

"A break up is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself to fix it."

"Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

"The Rain"

2009-12-09T23:34:00.000+08:00

I was woken by a familar sound today,
the usual sunshine that shines through my window is no where to be seen.

I look out the window, feeling the lazyness driving me back to sleep.
I felt as if, I have been up all night, battling in the realm of dreams.

As I begin to pick up my senses,
I heard not melodies of birds humming in the air,
instead, shouts of thunders filled my ears, grumblings of dismay, sung by the wrath of nature.

My heart sank as nature showers its tears upon the earth.
The climate change has change my inner soul.

I look out the window, I saw trees swaying from one end to the other.
I saw flashes of light going across the shadows of the day.

The whisper of the wind that hisses by, sends shiver to my soul.
The sound of rain battling against the roof,
is but the remiscence for all who has a home.

The sound of thunder, the flashes of light,
and the blinding torrents of rain that hisses by,
nature is cruel, it feels no pain.

I look upon the heavens, in search for a something.
Something that my soul longs for.

At the eye of storm,
I saw an array of light,
I saw a glimmer of hope.
I felt tranquil, calm at the sight.
I felt serene, I felt satisfied.

No matter how long the night, dawn will break.

"One way, One goal, One chance."

2009-11-18T00:10:00.000+08:00

One way,
One goal,
One chance.

The fire in me,
how long can you hold?
Be strong, Be bold.
And never let it go.

My way, My flesh,
I must let go.
My lust, My pride,
i must not succumb.

The way is clear, the path is shown.
I must draw the line of difference.

I must make a stand.
Lest, I will be left behind.

" Life is like a poem "

2009-11-10T14:25:00.003+08:00

Today is a present and tommorow is a gift.
It comes and goes at no mans delight.

I see a dawn of a new light.
I see a chance to make it right.

I may fall and i may rise,
At the end of the road, i can never see.

My heart longs for thee,the tranquil that never exist.
Serenity in my heart, is what I seek.

If happy ending is reality,
we would'nt need fairy tale.

'Riddles of your life"

2009-11-08T15:35:00.003+08:00

Your heart longs for glory.
Your dreams are high above others.
Your pride is at the hill top.
Your words are baneful.

Your heart will be broken.
Your pride will be your downfall.
Your dreams will be your curse.
Your words shall haunt you.

You act as if nothing happen,
You speak as if everything is alright,
You cant see your own heart.
You cant accept the truth.

When you fall,you cried.
But this time,
Im not gonna show any sense of sympathy.
Because, YOU brought this to yourself.

"War of Words"

2009-11-06T23:02:00.003+08:00

You speak of unity, but your words spell division.
You speak without wisdom and your words revealed your heart.
You may cause tension, you may cause strife,
But I forgive you, for you are only human.

You spread rumours without knowing the truth.
Your words are deceitful, half truth , half lies.
You say things as if , you understand, you know.
The truth is this, you know nothing and please do not act.

Your head is above all others,
You find sadness when others are higher than you.
You find happiness when no one is better than you.
And thats the curse of your life.
And I feel sorry for you.

You can say anything about me, my life, my wrongs.
But, please , leave everyone else alone.
My heart is strong, I can handle whats to come.
And I know,
Your words shall bare no trouble to my heart,
For you are a nobody, just like me.

You can never see your own heart, unless someone tells you so,
I hope you can see the bottom of your own heart.
Look in the mirror and change.
Change not for me ,or anyone.
Change for your own soul.

"RESPECT IS TO BE GAIN, AND NOT TO BE GIVEN."

"Moving On"

2009-11-04T23:08:00.003+08:00

A relationship is like a toy, easy to break , but hard to repair.
well, I dont ask for much in a friendship.
but, what you did to me.
i forgive u, but nothing is going to be the same again.
...
i can be a clown, making you smile, cheering u up.
but all i got was disrespect.
what u did , it was simply a slap of reality.
...
and now,
i know that in life, we can be the most happy go lucky person,
but even the most easy going person has a boiling point.
...
u can say anything u want, spread any rumours u want .
let it be a test of friendship for those who hear these rumours.
...
u said u were sorry, and yes i noe u are.
i saw ur tears fell, but tears cannot undone the damage.
...
u shed ur tears, i felt nothing.
my heart becomes a stone, it has made its decision.
...
i really do forgive u, but i cant forget what u did.
i gain nothing from our friendship.
...
i moved on, and i hope u do to.
for i will not try to repair it, i will just let it go.
for somethings are better left to be broken.

"It has just begun"

2009-10-12T16:19:00.002+08:00

"relax" is just written all over my mind..
....
its only the beggining...
assignments are waiting to pile up.
...
and well, i can honestly say,
recently,
my eyes just open,
i could see, people from a different view.
a higher understanding.
and now i know...
those who shoots out with their mouth just to bring you down..
well, even when my mind , fillled with words of insult, wanting to shoot back ,
BUT, im not like them, i must keep my composure, and let them say what they wanna say,
for i know, where they're heading, what their future will hold..
its all going in one direction...and a sad ending..

"words bare emptyness from people without wisdom, but the word of the wise are treasures of life"
....

"MIssion Accomplish"

2009-10-05T00:41:00.004+08:00

_examination time_

i did what i had to..
i did my wish list...
and got everything i wanted...

this holiday, has'nt been a waste...
woo!!
...

and yea..
exercising + eating
a lot..
..

_holidayee_

it ends tonite...
....

"A New Begining"

2009-10-03T13:08:00.002+08:00

A new sem awaits me,
trouble and problems will arise,
and im ready to shoot them down,
no matter how hard its gets,
there's only one road ahead,

anyone who backstabs me,
i thank you,
if u r telling the truth, that i may know, and change.
if ur telling false rumours,
i thank you too,
for helping me know who my real friends are.

lazyness please stay far from me,
i cant take u any longer,
the fire in me, that conquers u,
how long can it hold?

is there any change in me?
after 3 long months...
i wouldnt know,
only time can tell..

i will not praise anybody, even if i want to,
for im afraid it will live up ur heart,
and i would not accept any praise,
for i know where i came from.

mistakes are made, mistakes are gone.
i must learn from it, and wised up.
from the bottom of my heart,
i can see a new hope, a new chance to make it right.

"The Question"

2009-09-29T00:44:00.003+08:00

lets pause for a moment..
Is life all about enjoying??
...
i only can say its all about the time...
...
time of sorrow'
time of happiness'
..
we must know how to use it well..
make your decision, use it wisely...
...

Enjoying life

2009-09-24T00:44:00.002+08:00

woo!!
great start to my holiday...
yea..
had SHOGUN today...
and damn i'm full..
there goes my final remaining 2 abs...
...
zzz...
...
a great relief from my studies..
thats what i need , to get my ass ready for what's to come next...
...
and damn..
this is the time i need to sharpen my badminton skills...
lets not bring any shame to myself..
at least put on a show...
hahaha...
wining isnt everything. its just a licence to brag...
and i dun want that anymore...!!

" A long way to go "

2009-09-16T15:43:00.000+08:00

woo!!...
just finish exams..
i can farely say..
it was an ok exam..
not awesomely hard ass papers..
well....
let the results do the talking..
..
holiday is here..
and what i m suppose to do??
......

first of all..
its my first SEM ..
so im just a minor..
and yet , i hate myself for walking like a senior..
haha..
i must be humble, with my head held low..
next sem awaits me,
im probably representing School of science in badminton..
well,
no matter what the results,
i thank him in advance, and i must never forget where i came from...
.....
.....

i hope i can spend my holiday wisely and without wasting any precious time..
...
peace@@..

"Hardknocks of life"

2009-09-11T00:40:00.004+08:00

well, just finish a biology subject today..
i cant complain, the facts are there, the answer's were at the palms of my hand.
...
failing or passing is not the issue,
whether or not i have done my part is the real deal.
well if i tried my best, so.. "what is failing?"
..
"we learn more than failures than in success" i said to myself..
thats my moto nowadays..
...

i realise something important in life..
to me, there's no glory in defeating others..
it does not make you a better person,
it only lifts your heart up, and feeds our pride...
..

and what can pride brings us??
more shame and humble pie..
..

well, you could say i have gone through major "life humbling process"..
through my badminton carreer , i have learn much from life..
and i thank him, for bringing me down to earth..

today this point was proven time and again..
..
i was chatting with my college buds about their studies and all..
well, 1 of them undergoes peralihan , and can scored 10A's in trials of spm,
and how on earth she got only 3A's in SPM??(which is more easier than trials)
....

well, when a man thinketh he stand , he will surely fall..
and this a LAW in life we must follow..

"whoever thinks he is great, is probabaly the greatest fool."

"THE BATTLE WITHIN"

2009-09-04T18:47:00.002+08:00

it comes a time,
whr we must ask ourselfs,
what do we want??
...

i have battled the lazyness, but still, it lurds within me..
to choose between satisfying your flesh temporary, or to work hard to finish the job..
its a constant battle...
we all know, that working hard and finising the job is the best option...
but why do we , succumb to our lazyness??
....

well, indeed our brains are short circuit...
lazyness vs hardworkingness..
who will win??
who will lose??
......

our mind has no peace, our ,our mind has no tranquility..
what can bring cut-silence in our heads??
from the suggettions within...
...

sometimes we are not even aware what is going on in our minds...
there are so many question marks..
but not a whisper of answer...
pure silence...
...

"ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free"..

"P.U.S.H"

2009-09-03T20:00:00.001+08:00

"Pray until something happens"..
something i saw, which was funny..

exam season is here, knocking me on the door step...
few weeks ago, i was panicking, duno what to do...
the constant thought of studying races through my mind...

and now,
inorganic chemistry is at the dawn of tomorow..
and yet i can blog here...
GREAT...
...

to constant battle of lazyness lurds within me...
every morning its a struggle..
i need to win this battle to win this war...
damn the lazyness...
screw the pig inside me......

...
and do u guys know whats the true secret of success???
..
i noe u dont...
well, the truth is this.......
"there's no secret to success, just pure determination, hardwork, patience and practice."

short pose..
but full of charge density...
the battle goes on, i have time till tomorow...
@@..
peace

"I salute her"

2009-08-31T13:26:00.003+08:00

...
well, i met a girl this year,
and i never seen this type of girl for a long time..
...
she looks at me, and smiles at me,
even when im not looking at her,
from the corner of my eye,
i can see her smiling at me...
...
our relationship is funny...
i seldom talk to her, and she seldom talks to me...
she has her own set of friends, and so do i..
but it is that moment ,
that i look into her eyes, and she smiles at me...
that i appreciate the most...
...
she doesnt feel ashame standing side by side with me, she doesnt care what others think..
and thats the beauty i see in her...
for a guy like me with a girl like her, well chemistry is hard to happen..
im not hoping for anything, but if the chance is right at the doorstep,
i would surely knock and enter the door...
...
she makes me feel wanted...
and accepts me for who i am..
over the years,
i have been with girls who acts like they're not with me when their own friends is around...
they are afraid of rumours, they are afraid of people saying things, and they are ashame of me..
well, let me say this to you, whoever you r, i 4give u...
for a test of heart and u'r the one that failed, not me.....
..
i noe its too good to be true that this girl has a crush on me..
even though the signs are there,
i cant interpret it as i hope it would...
and i know i do not deserved her, and i do not to want to hurt a pure and innocent girl like her...
....
"i am not sad for what is not to be mine, but grateful for the little things i had with u."

"LOSS at first sight"

2009-08-27T13:19:00.003+08:00

..
during the vball competition..
well, they were two teams that were really powerful, (powered by state players)..
..
every1 was trying to avoid them in the "draw" of group stages...
..
well, we got lucky,
and we drew them both ...
in the same group...
at first, i thought my captain was joking, but it was written all over his face.."we r SCREWed"...
hahaha...
"poW!!"
our hopes of getting to the semis...
well,
"you will never now until you try"...i said to myself..
..
and i dont understand why im always entangled with underdogs...
...
we have nothing to lose....SO give our best and have fun..
...
the 1st ball itself,
i sacrifice my body and flung my body to the ground and save the ball...
until today, the scar hasnt healed..
...
haha, but it was a 5 second moment of fame, and a whole week stuck in pain...
my group of vballers, consist of mostly girls, 30 girls and 10 guys...
the atmosphere was superb, with 30 girls cheering you on, it made me feel like a STAR...
lol...well im not though...
i scored quite a few points for our team...but all of them you could say is "i dont what im doing, just get the ball across..
you could say, i was on "fire"...
"haha...
im only good at putting on a show, throwing my body here and there...
i cant remember how many times, i flung over just 2 get the ball..
with adrenaline pumping and the desire to go on...
we eventually lost to the eventual champions of the tournament by 31-27..
we were leading 27-24 or something...but..
"miss a an inch, miss by an mile, we miss"
...
i was really glad we didnt get thrashing in front of our "FANS"...
we put on a show, and they put on our spirit..
..
well, we learn more from defeats than success...
i guess what i learn today is that we ought to give a 110% even if it means losing, and in the end, it was well worth it...
for what we won, was not a "gold medal", what we won was, indeed , ourself and doing the unexpected...
...
"a thxs to our cheerleaders, a thxs to our teamates who never gave up, a thxs for a great game played."

"Eating Competition"

2009-08-11T12:19:00.000+08:00

..
lately i joined the eating competiton at my college..
just 4 fun...
..
haha...
it was fun ,even when i lost by 1 and a half bowl of MEE...
some people say i ate like "WOMEN"...(wyeK)
i think i even ate less then the girl contestant!!
...
but the reason i lost is bcoz i already ate my lunch at the kantin..
and when leaving the kantin, some people were shouting 4 contestant 4 the competition,
so without the expectation of winning, i join 4 the experience...and offcourse its free to join..
TARC is really a fun place to be, just so u noe, there are all kinds of events, it's just so SPONTANEOUS...and out of our expectation...
rock climbing, the "human hamster ball thing", and all sorts la...
so if i join any fun activity, i'll be sure to post it here...
and i realise not so many people are so outgoing and fun as me...
huys ....SHOW SOME BALLS!!!..
...

btw, volleyball competition is next week..
obviously im joining...
and i know theres no such thing as luck..
SO, dun wish me luck...

"Its All About Love"

2009-08-03T21:46:00.004+08:00

Its all about love

everyone needs to be loved..

for without love , there is no life.

love is pure, love is blind ,

love is the greatest gift of life.

' for every beauty, there are eyes to see. '

i said to myself..

to the love of my life..

this is for you..

you were always there when i needed you....

you were never too far from me when i wanted you...

and i will say this to you;

“ Take my hand , and I’ll walk you across the torrents of blinding rain in the unforgiving storm.”

without you, my life is not complete,

without you, im a clown without a smile,

without you, i cannot find the reason to go on,

without you, im just a lonely soul lost in this chastening world,

In my very own world, it becomes dimmer....

it is with you, my life is complete,

it is with you, im a clown who can smile again,

it is with you, i found the reason to go on,

it is with you, my heart skips a beat..

my love for you, is like the stars shining ever so brightly in the night,

my love for you, is like the ever flowing river into the sea,

my love for you cannot be match by the deepest of seas, the highest of mountains.

my love for you can find no words.

our love is not driven by lust, our love is as pure as the tears of a child,

our love would stand against the greatest of waves,

our love would stand in the eye of the storm..

i stood there looking into your eyes,

i saw the bottom of your heart,

you want me, as much as i want you.

as our lips touched,

i felt for a moment that time stopped,

i felt a feeling that words can never say,

i felt a connection,

i felt our souls touched.

and as our souls touched,

you have given me the key to your heart,

as i have given you the key to mine.

written by: mr.LEONG

"LESSONs"

2009-07-30T22:09:00.002+08:00

well..
i lost in the semi finals..
and then the 3rd and 4th placing..
..
i realise, no matter winning or losing...
life goes on...
life itself is running with time..

..
but i know that "we learn more from defeats than success.."
im happy that i got this far. i know by my own ability i can never atain this, and im forever grateful unto HIM...
...

i really had a great day today...
i wrote an narrative essay...
and i guess its 1 of my top10 essays of my life...
well, if im free , i will post it, for all to enjoy..
...

"COLLEGE BADMINTON"

2009-07-29T22:53:00.002+08:00

woo!!..
im in the semi's tomorow...
doubles..
well...
im expecting to lose...
cause the opponent is like ...
"college team" or something..

well...
1st of all..
i thank GOD for everthing he has done for me....
and i m grateful...
and im forever unworthy..

btw..
my soccer team lost in the q-finals of the tournament..>!!!

"COLLEGE FEVER"

2009-07-25T01:00:00.010+08:00

Problem statement: what to do when ur free?
Hypothesis: do watever u want to relieved stress.
Procedure:
FRIday is my free day..
3 hours break to the next class..
so..
WE normally hang out at jusco...

Results:
so i followed the girls, they went n LOOK at BIKINI ...( i raised my eyebrows many times)

haha...
so what happens when u found out the thing u wanted doesnt have ur size??

...

this pic says it all..

hahaha...
taking her to children's section next round...

force me take pics with dumb ass teddy bears..
haha..

tats me holding a handBAG...
nope its not mine...
just entertaining the cameraman...

...
missing my kindergarden days...
haha..

lunch time ..
"carmen" probabably too excited sitting next 2 me...
she's like: "i got his number, i got his number!!!!
hehe"""

"carmen" and her "pai seh face" as i brought her 2 the men's underwear section...

CONCLUSION : "all work and no play makes jack a dull boy" so have fun..!!

"WORDS"

2009-07-23T00:11:00.007+08:00

bro already graduated from diploma

"Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That’s why we call it the present."

well..people..

words can be use in anyway we want them to be...

its the ultimate tool to express our feelings,thoughts,desires..etc..

im always trap in the vocab jail...

this simply means, my scope of language aint wide enough...

im trying to improved my selection of words in my brain..

...

tats y im always posting some famous quotes in my facebook...

to mayb give u some inspiration??

i guess..

"The only real failure in life is the failure to try."

all these sayings really brought much sense 2 me..

its amazing how people can put feelings and thoughts in just a few simple words..

well,

tats only my thought...

"COLLEGE SOCCER"

2009-07-17T00:20:00.002+08:00

hooray guys...
.....
captain LEONG has joined the team!!!
.....
.....
haha..
not college team though..
just our course punya team..
.....
we have about 9 players...
so i plan 2 sneak our secret weapon..
and my comrade of soccer from the pass...
...
n he is ... "kah wai"
haha...
...
next week is the tournament...
well..
i m expecting ...
tat we sure damn going 2 lose...
...
1st reason..
....
im the best there!!!...
haha...
(kah wai) not counted...
he is NOT official in the team...
....
2nd reason..
most of them are soccerGINS...
means VIRGINS in SOCCER...
(only c the ball)x(havent have 1st kick)
hahaha...
......

3rd reason...
hot headed me...
dun feel like scolding them...
since they r soccerGINS...
......

4th reason...
the FIELD is so big...
i cant cover all...
no stamina...
summore im playing midfield...
coz u noe la...
if ur a virgin...
u will still have "defensive MODE"
haha...

n the funny thing about TARCollege...is....
"GIRLS CATEGORY IN FOOTBALL!!!"
...
i was like "wat!!"
....
if futsal 4 girls i accept...
but football??
plz la...
wasting time...
how many girls even buy soccer boots?
...
mayb "kantin malay workers" vs "indian toilet washers"??
i wouldnt noe...
....

...as time goes by...

2009-07-15T19:13:00.002+08:00

WOW!!
...
ITs july already...
...
indeed " time and tide waits for no man"
...
"One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching."...

i look back...
nvr i regretted doing the things i did...
enjoyed fully the fun n excitement of 5 months of holiday..
knowing tat time well spent satisfy me...
boredom isnt my problem...
....

from the LiFe after spm...
converted to LIFE in collge...
...
the " ATTitude of after SPM has left me..."
having the 'college" mentality now...
....
i hardly complain bout how tough life is in college now compare to the beggining..
i got OVER it...
....
this is because...
i have made a decision before, therefore now i must lived through it..
.......
the ship have sailed..
n i have no turning back..
so no point complaining..
just accept it for what it is..
n LIVEd through it....
...
n im already 18 this year...
i have a long path ahead of me...
no point complaining at the beggining of the journey...
....
its up to us, what type of life u want in the end??

"prosperity comes with hard work..."

"marriage, yes or no..???"

2009-07-11T00:30:00.002+08:00

well, today we had english presentation...
...
married vs anti-marriage debate...
...
having this topic really woke me up..
...
i was te positve site of the debate...
...
in 1 of my many points..
as follows...
...
"getting married, is the 1st step of becoming a man.."
(makes so much sense rite? responsibility and all those stuff..)

"to c our children grow and to teach them the ways of our fathers,to teach them the right path of life ....
all these are priceless.."

....
hahaha...
i was just really bullshitting SPONTANEOUSly...
and some1 change their perpective of "marriage".. thxs to me..
..

" COKE BOMBs " lesson

2009-07-04T20:54:00.005+08:00

...
just played with coke bomb on friday...
weeee.......
...

ms chen : how many bars of mentos u wanna put in the coke? The other classes put in two bars of mentos.

me : miss chen, they put 2 , we put 3 la...(whole class laughs)

ms chen : sure ah? i scared u ltr cant put all in ...

me : dun worry la , we never noe until we try..

according to ms chen the carbon dioxide in the coke will react in somethg in the mentos, cant remember what she say...

EXPERIMENT TIME
...
instead of 3 bars...
i only manage to put in 3 biji"s... then explode!!!
n i got slap by COKE..all over my face....
hahaha...
....

next time i will just keep my mouth shut!!!... and be humble a bit..

..happy days...

2009-07-01T02:10:00.004+08:00

well,
recently ,
things have been really great..
got a new phone, sony.e g900...
got a new racquet- yonex armour tech 900.... almost same price as the phone...
but got it on discount la..
hehe.....
...

On monday,
while playing vball,
some singapore"s college vball GIRLS team came to tarc..
...

my gosh...
they r so different then i expected...
i wasnt reli excited bout girls team coming to tarc
u c , our skol vball girls team are filled with atheletes...
(u noe wat i mean )...
....
but then the sing girls are so damn HOT....
...
seriously, its so attractive for a hot girl to play sports...
u noe wat i mean, tough gentle girls, i would say...
...
couldnt focus on the vball training after their arrival...
haha..
....

well besides vball, i have to study too...
so here r some pics with my new lads....

look at this picture, do not notice this girl...
look at my guns, they r pretty big...
hahaha...

does this post look familiar to u?
hahaha...

..........

tats all 4 this post..
thk u for viewiing...

A JOKE THAt TURn a JOKE

2009-06-25T22:40:00.004+08:00

well,
u could say that im the funny man in the class..
.....
so on wednesday,
its my turn for the presentation... topic " chemistry in our daily life "
i decided to tell a joke..
since im the funny man...
and trying to score extra mark by doing so.....

its starts like this..

" a very good morning to ms.chen our physical chem lecturer, and to all my friends that are present here. My topic for this chemical presentation today is about.................................................. ...................................................................."" SEXXX"" ..........................
"pause"
....................................."just joking, that was just to get ur attention....".......................................

only few of the guys laugh...
others just look at me as if i have just said the most ridiculous thing they have ever heard in my life....
not even a smile from their sweet faces...
....
haha...
it was more funny to thk of the scenario that just happen...
i stood there telling a joke and got the coldest response any1 ever get, DURING PRESENTATtion...
i felt like, making a FOOl out of myself...
i guess those guys are chinese EDUCATED..
cant get my english JOKES...
no hard feelings though ..
and im 60% pretty embarest and 40% damn proud i have the balls to say tat joke in the 1st place...
hahaha...

RAINY DAY

2009-06-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

When my class ended today...
at about 4.30pm..
as i walk out of the class.......

the gloomy sky begin to shower its tears upon the ground...
...

...i felt...

a cooling chill that shakes up every cold receptor in my skin has been triggered..

never i felt the stormy rain with so powerful that it sends shivers to my soul...

....

the gloomy sky has become darken with clouds of darkness..

the trees were shaking unwittingly,

...

the thunderous sound, the mighty flash of light..

comes the trembling of natures glory and power...

...

as the torrents of blinding rain, that showers upon the earth...

as the sounds of nature that reach my ears...

i felt relieved, as if nature knows my pain...

i stand in awe to witness this majestic and phenomena happening...

...

AND THEN...
i walk my ass in the rain..
and became soaking wet...
....
thxs Carmen 4 ur umbrella..
HAHA...

TARC-is there any malays?

2009-05-23T10:51:00.002+08:00

lol..
recently i was ask this ques...
and the answer is YES...
there r plenty of malays in TArc........

well...
those floor sweepers, bus drivers , toilet cleaners... and so on...
majority of malays does this...
students...
the ratio probably will b 1:100
..

yup...
if ur racist...
thn come to tarc...
no malays..
kantin with PORK...

wakaka..

BAdminton stories- Education Through badminton

2009-03-02T13:31:00.007+08:00

SO, im back 4 more stories..
but all of them r true..
haha..

In the year 2007,
i was 16,
n join the seri petaling open badminton competiton ...
i joined doubles n single ......under18...in the closed category...( seri petaling residents only la)

1st, doubles...
i team up with my bro...
so the 1st round ,
the opponents were 2 kids... i guess around 7 or 8 years old...(both of them)
so ...me n my bro was 16 n 18 thn...
the opponents dad , ingat it was a mistake...
coz we big boys mah...
n he complain to referee saying not fair ..this n tat...
as if , they were gonna to win the tournament if it was under-12..
didnt daddy noe his sons joined UNDER 18??

b4 the the game, i told my brother , nvr look down on any opponent..
just do our best...
so we wack them la...
smash... all thgs we oso do la...i admit we didnt give them any water...
anyway, it was 30 point rule,
n they got around 5 points like tat la....

after the game...

the opponents father approuch me ...
n scolded me ..
"y smash them"?
"they oso duno how 2 play"?
...
n thn i smiled...
if not scold back meh??

anyway...
i"m just having Methods To My Madness...
wat i wanted the KIDS 2 noe is tat...
i'm giving u face by not giving u chance,
sounds ironic...(i thg their dad got me all wrong)
A Blessing In Disguise i would say....

u c,
when i play badminton , if u give water(chinese) 2 me...
i will feel like i have been look down and the results i get is not reli wat it seems...
so i only did wat i wanted others to do unto me...
besides tat,
i can give water no problem,
i use LEFT hand n play , my partner stand by the side n drink water i 1 on 2 them, use 1 leg jump all around the court...n laugh during play?
is tat wat u 1 4 ur kids 2 be humiliated?
N daddy can thk me, thx for giving my sons a chance??
or just finish the game with honour..respect knowing truely u have tried UR BEST??...

anyway, me n bro lost in the 2nd round 2 the eventual champions...
30-29 points...
serious...
haha..

Last but not least,
the moral of the story ......
..........
i dun noe...
get ur own conclusion.........

DOg stealing FoOD?

2009-02-28T12:59:00.003+08:00

...
hehe..im back for another funny story..
but this is a short 1...

when i was young lad...
i took my dog out for a walk..
so when i was crossing the road...
i was looking left n right looking out for cars..
i notice my dog was chewing on sumthg...
...
n when i turn back n look...
o shit, my dog stole ( CHar siew PAu ) which is offered to idols... u noe la chinese ppl always put their praying thgs near trees...
WTH!!
AT FIRST i laugh n tried to take away the pau from my dogs mouth...
but my DOg enjoyEd the whole damn CSP..
it was freaking hilarious...
i m innocent..so as the dog...
...
imagine..ppl..
wat if stray dogs come n pee there??
isnt tat so degrading??
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THIS IS my BITCH.........

BAdminton STOries- MY fAll

2009-02-27T12:00:00.005+08:00

hmm...
so yesterday i was talking to my mum about badminton.. suddenly...
i remembered when i was in primary skol...
i played mixed doubles in msskl...
haha...
so the funny thg is this...
i told my partner which is a girl...in order to win...
u need to do NTH.............
only just squad down at the left corner of the court n stay there.....except for SERVING ball la......
tat was my badminton strategy n tactics...
n i was playing 1 on 2.....a.k.a 1 man show with this way..
we entered semi finals...
it may sound imposiible to sum people..
but.. seriously... tats the ultimate strategy to win mixed doubles under-12 ...
becoz women just slow MEN down ....
IT is an unspoken fact which is WOmen is downfall of MAN...for a case in point, ADam n EVE... hahaha...
this is fact not sexiest..........
the story goes on like this...........
b4 the semi final game...
my partners mum actualy have a chat with me...
n told me 2 trust my partner n we r a team n we must trust each other,
losing is alright n most important is 2 have fun...
so it began...whr she started giving back sum strokes ..
hmm i couldnt remember how much we lost...
but i thk it was close... lose nvm.. her daugther cried..
Again WOMEN....
hahaha ...
n in the end we ended up in 3rd place...
(top 3rd mixed doubles in the whole KL) ....
not bad considering it was 1st time partnership...
well, the moral of the story is... sumtimes.... u have to let a MAN do his thg...
not bring em down...

hahaaha...

this is the medal i got for bergu campuran..hehehe